Is withdrawl and ugly word?  Is it a scary word?  For me it is a realistic word, something I deal with more frequently than I'd like.  No, I'm not addicted to drugs or alcohol, instead I'm on antidepressants.  If things don't go right, like I forget to pick up my script or forget to fill it, something scary and ugly can happen to me.

I don't know how common it is to experience withdrawl symptoms when you suddenly stop taking antidepressants, but it happens to me.  I'm not even on a super high dose or anything that would seem to cause such a strong reaction from my body, but within a few days of stopping my medications, I can feel it.
This time, I thought I was getting sick.  I had a quick temper, didn't feel well and couldn't sleep, I thought I was coming down with whatever Mr Canon is sick with.  The next day, my temper was worse, I started feeling queasy, stomach craps, shaking, hot flashes and dizzy spells.  By the third day, I realize my emotions are out of control.  I yell at the kids and then almost immediately start bawling because I feel so awful for yelling at them.  I have a hard time forming coherent thoughts and a hard time even getting my hands to pick up small things.  My nerves are shot.  My patience is gone.  I can barely contain the extreme feelings of rage and sadness that tremor through my body.  I feel like shit.  I see it now...I remember that I have my pills waiting at the pharmacy and I had forgotten to pick them up the past few days.

I've done it to myself again.